Monday, March 28, 2011

There's Something There That Wasn't There Before. Or: Louis, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

This happened some time ago, but I feel worth writing about because of the realization it spurred. Now, my host father does not work, and has not worked for some time, so it seems that the family relies heavily on the pension he gets from the government and the rent that the family gets from volunteers and renters. This is not a lot of money, and I understand they would be worried as the deadline for our required host family living neared. I have looked at the available apartments in Ismayilli, and ended up rejecting them for a number of reasons, including the price.

Before this decision had been finalized, a man who would be working on a construction job here in town for some time approached my host father about renting the room next to mine. I arrived home for lunch to my host father’s declaration that I would have a neighbor. I had a bit of a panic attack. I felt safe at this house, safe enough that I didn’t really feel the need to lock my door when I left. Having a strange man that Peace Corps had not checked out beforehand (it is policy that Peace Corps meet the people living in the house before a volunteer move in) understandably shook this confidence. Was this even allowed by Peace Corps? I made some frantic phone calls to my program manager and the housing manager, but with no concrete reply.

And then it turned out not to matter. For some reason or another, my father came to me later that day and asked me if having a neighbor made me uncomfortable. I debated lying and just agreeing to the situation to make things easy, but in the end told him that, yes, having a stranger living in the room next to mine did make me uncomfortable. And with that, my host father decided the man would be asked to move out the next day.

It is very easy to get cynical about people who need money, to expect money to be the only motivator. But when people surprise you, when they show that they care more about the relationship, is such a reassuring feeling. I have never doubted my host father’s caring nature; he has always seemed and demonstrated that he wants to make me feel welcome in his home. But, when I finally did hear from Azeri staff and friends about the issue, it did not seem odd to them that a room would rented out like this. And so it is also nice to see that some ideals, some relationships, and the ideals that go along with them, are universal, over-lapping. In seeking me out to insure I was comfortable, my host father showed that he truly thought of me as a family member, something I am deeply grateful for. And something that I hope to be able to reciprocate as my time here continues.

Novruz, A Spring Tale

Christmas has come and gone. Well, sort of the Azeri equivalent. Novruz is anticipated in the way Christmas is, and contains elements that are both reminiscent of Halloween and Easter. At its heart, it is a celebration of Spring, the death of winter. It actually starts four weeks in advance, with each Tuesday before Novruz being celebrated as symbolic of each of the four elements, fire, water, wind, and earth, awakening from their winter sleep. The holiday is a time of eating, family, and joviality, somewhat in contrast to the other holidays we’ve experienced so far in Azerbaijan (namely several days memorializing martyrs and violence). Novruz is not just an Azeri holiday, but stems from the Zoroastrian tradition, though no longer religious. In the present day it is a cultural celebration, taking place across the region, in Georgia, Iraq, Iran, Uzbekistan, and Albania to name a few.


My Novruz celebration began here when I returned to Ismayilli with my two host brothers and Amy, a previous volunteer who lived with my host family and now works in Baku. When we returned to Ismayilli, it was a very different place from when I left. Spring had sprung, the sun was out, colored eggs where all around, and the semani had grown tall in the house. Semani is wheat, and is grown in small pots in time for the holiday. My reunion with my host family, who welcomed me back with wide smiles and open arms, was a perfect way to kick off the holiday.


For lunch the next day (I was allowed to sleep later than I have since coming to Ismayilli, and had fun explaining what jet lag was when I finally awoke), we had the common feast food of kebab. My host mother took charge, orchestrating and monitoring the cooking of the chicken and instructing my host father on how to prepare the food.

I must preface the evening’s events with this note. A section of our house is rented to a few students from a nearby village studying at a local practical university. Right, so that evening, Amy and I escorted my host mother to their village, Rushan, to guest with one of the student’s family. I was a little nervous about this, as I really have not done much guesting, an uncommon feat for volunteers, but was glad Amy was along as her Azeri is much better than mine (understandable after living and working on and off for seven years in the country).


When we got to the house in Rushan, my host mother set up talking with the adults, and the students were instructed to entertain Amy and I by driving us around. Leaving the house and the town of Ismayilli was kind of a big deal for my host mother, so we went along with the students as they took us wherever nearby they could think of, including to a hilltop where people have bonfires during the summer and a Kansan graveyard, still more or less standing after the Kansans have gone back to Kansas. We returned in time for dinner, kebab again, and then the real festivities began. One of the main traditions of Novruz is to build a bonfire (the fire being one of the key connections to the Zoroastrian past of the holiday), which people then jump over three times. The point is to commit one’s troubles and problems to the flames to be consumed. In practice, it’s a lot of fun, though exceedingly hard to get a decent photo of in the dark. We also took part in a practice, usually for children, which reminds me of trick or treating. Children go around to neighbor houses and leave their hats on the stoop or right inside the door, knock and then hide. The owners of the house then fill the hat with candies and treats. After all that, it was getting pretty late, and we sat wondering whether we would be able to get back to Ismayilli that night—all the taxi drivers in the village were drunk or didn’t want to drive all the way there and back. Finally, a ride was arranged and we were able to sleep in our own beds.


Oh, one more fun tradition is for kids to think of a question about the future, and then listen in on a conversation. If what they overhear is positive, their question is answered positively, and vice versa. Sometimes parents and relatives, knowing someone is dropping eaves, will say ridiculous or confusing things to mess with the not-so-secret listeners.


The next day, the relatives arrived. My host father’s brother’s family and my host mother’s sister and her daughter arrived from Baku. We young people were assigned the task of setting up the fire for that night, and we let Bozdar off his tether to play. We ended up playing a small three-on-three game of Ultimate Frisbee, ending in a tie. While the family went to a nearby cemetery to pay their respects, Amy and I visited an English teacher with whom Amy had worked as a volunteer. This was a great opportunity to meet a nice woman and make a contact with a good English teacher.

After a dinner of plov (rice pilaf), another common party or special occasion meal, interrupted briefly by a large group of little kids with their hats (who definitely missed the point of hiding as they giggled noisily while we filled their hats), we headed out to the yard, for another fire. This one was a monster, and took a long time to die down enough for safe jumping.

So that was Novruz. The guests are now gone, the house is quiet again, and classes start up again at school on Monday. Novruz was a fun holiday, maybe not one with too much of a hidden meaning or message, but the coming of spring is exciting to be sure. After going nearly a month without seeing the sun, the spring is definitely something to celebrate.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

On Leaving, Being Away, And Coming Back

Peace Corps requires that for the first 90 days after we are sworn in as volunteers we do not leave the country. That time period passed recently, and I was able to take advantage of that by taking a trip to Scotland. Up until I was sitting on that plane as it sped up for lift off, I wasn’t sure I was really going. And then a liberating feeling hit me: I was leaving.

This feeling was not a result of any distaste for Azerbaijan, or for my work as a volunteer. But this was a break I needed. I was worried up until I took off. The day before, due to threatened protests against the government, Peace Corps sent out an email saying volunteers could only go to Baku in non-vital situations. At the same time, I discovered my PST host family would be leaving town for the weekend, so I would not be able to stay there. I scrambled, and everything worked out. I was allowed to go to Baku, and I was able to stay with my PST language teacher’s family. The language teacher, my LCF, was then kind enough to even take me to the airport, via bus, subway, and finally by a taxi that he was able to get for super cheap because I hid and the driver didn’t realize a foreigner would be on board.

As the plane landed in London-Heathrow, and I disembarked, I was shocked by the English writing everywhere. No upside down ‘e’s. This was madness. I eventually made it through a biometric scanner and customs to my terminal, where I found myself choosing between two (TWO!) bars. I knew the first money I wanted to spend would be on a good beer. I had just found that it is not possible to exchange Azeri manats in England, so I felt a drink was reasonable. While waiting at the bar to order, a Scottish man standing next to me struck up a conversation about what I was drinking and when I explained I wanted something dark because I’d been in Azerbaijan, where there are only mass-produced lagers. It turned out he had been on my flight, and he invited me to sit with him and his colleague. We had a great conversation about Scotland, Azerbaijan and Baku, and along the way he got properly pissed, and was kind enough to buy me a beer.

Scotland itself was a wonderful break, rejuvenating for my energy levels, for my relationship with my girlfriend, and my attitude towards my work. The two of us, stayed in an apartment in the West End of Glasgow, where we were able to cook for ourselves. Italian food, chicken tikka masala, fish tacos, and buffalo wings. Fast metros, cathedrals, department stores, museums and art galleries. Good food, good beer, good friendly people. We also spent a day visiting the Isle of Great Cumbrae, which was nearly empty because we were there out of season, but managed to find a single open restaurant where we were able to cross fish and chips off our food list. Caroline had spent time there when she was 8 on a CTY marine biology program. It was exciting seeing the realization of familiarity wash over her face as we entered a classroom. "It smells exactly the same," she gasped. Another day was spent in Edinburgh, where we explored the Edinburgh castle, and the Glasgow underground. The underground, it turns out, is not the hell on earth it was advertized as, but possibly haunted street/allies which were at one point built over for the city chambers.

As relieving, wonderful, and exhilarating as the trip was, I still had a bit of a panic as I left. The first evening around midnight as I struggled to negotiate a taxi from the airport, I questioned briefly why I had returned. The next morning was much easier, and I chalked up my doubts to exhaustion from travel and the understandable depression of leaving a more familiar culture. I’m back in Ismayilli now, the place which is by now basically my home. It is warm now, spring is coming, and so it almost feels like everything has changed. But my room, the house, and the town seem the same. Even though I gave my host mother permission to sweep my room while I was gone, it seemed untouched. Nothing has changed, everything has changed, and I’m ready to get going on classes. Now I just have to wait till after Novruz.

Monday, March 7, 2011

The Sun Is Shining In The Sky

This weekend I saw the sun and blue sky for the first time in just about a month. Azerbaijan has been toying with me for weeks, teasing me about spring coming, and then snowing again the next day (or even later the same day). But this weekend, the snow was melting, the sun was shining and I was able to take my long underwear off.

On Sunday I actually was able to sit out on the porch and read in the sun. Every now and them my host parents would come out and check and see if I wanted another layer on so I wouldn't get sick (I was also sitting on the ground (GASP!)).

It’s not uncommon for it to snow during Novruz, so who knows if this will last (I may even eat these words between the time I write them and the time I post them).

50th Anniversary Part II

After a check in visit from my program manager, a periodic visit all PCVs receive, my school director got excited about holding an assembly to celebrate Peace Corps, as well as tying in the coming Novruz and Women’s Day holidays. It was decided that students would perform dances and sing songs about Novruz and Women’s Day, and after a failed attempt to encourage skit-writing, my students decided to give short presentations on several topics, including Azerbaijan, Novruz, Women’s Day, and England/the World. I was also asked to get in on the action, speaking about Peace Corps.

The day was generally a success. It started with two kids MC-ing, and gave short presentations on Azerbaijan and “My Dreamworld.” Then it was my turn to speak about Peace Corps. One of the teachers, Humay, was kind enough to translate. I spoke briefly about Peace Corps and its 50th anniversary, and then ended by encouraging all the students and teachers to come to me with their ideas. I don’t know if they really understood the message, but time will tell. Afterwards, I introduced my students for their presentations.

The only downside was that two of my student groups dropped out. This was partly my fault, as they didn’t have as much time to prepare. Due to weather there was a few days of poor attendance, which made planning harder.

The kids took a little encouragement to really project their voices, and we weren’t quite there on volume, but the kids wrote their own words and I helped with the translations, but they seemed to enjoy the applause afterwards. They were just as excited that I brought my camera, and wanted tons of pictures of them performing.

A group of elementary age students performed a Novruz dance, which almost was derailed when the CD player stopped. A student singing from the side of the stage saved the moment. The show must go on!

The Pictures are:
1. Me talking about Peace Corps.
2. Group 1: Women's Day
3. Group 2: Novruz
4. Children's dance saved by offstage singing.





Friday, March 4, 2011

My 50th Anniversary of Peace Corps

Fifty years ago this month (the first of the month to be precise), John F. Kennedy followed up on his speech at the University of Michigan during his campaign by signing an executive order forming the Peace Corps. Now, more than 200,000 volunteers have served in 193 countries. This is an often exasperating and exhausting job, but it has been said that this is “the hardest job you’ll ever love.” Even with all the frustrations I have faced and will face, this is an important and impressive legacy that I am fortunate to be a part of. The Peace Corps experience in Azerbaijan is considerably different from other Peace Corps posts. I have ready access to Internet, but the idea of volunteerism and the goals of Peace Corps are more foreign to people here, as opposed to sites in places such as Africa, where volunteerism has had a long history. This is something that in fact led me to accept the post, knowing that as a part of a young program, I would be building on a new concept and spreading ideas about volunteering that are important to me.

I’ve got to say that my 50th anniversary showcased all the highs and lows of Peace Corps service. Frustration over mixed messages about meeting time, frustration over language barriers, success with a language group game, a package from home, dinner with my host family, and the celebration of Chershemba leading up to Novruz (see previous post for information).

The celebration in Ismayilli is ongoing, as on Friday, my school will hold an assembly, celebrating Peace Corps, Novruz, and March 8th, National Women’s Day. The students are planning to read poems, perform songs, give short presentations, and dance, and I’ll speak briefly about Peace Corps.

I also happened to choose to watch several episodes from the first season of How I Met Your Mother. In two of the episodes, Peace Corps got a call out, and in another, Azerbaijan was referenced. In one, the Neil Patrick Harris character, Barney, uses the Peace Corps as a way to pick up a woman at a wedding reception, saying he’s leaving the next day, and relying on the perceived nobility of the Peace Corps. “You know, some people say the Peace Corps is the most noble thing a person can do, and to those people, I say ‘Is it?’ And usually they say, ‘Yes, it is.’” The woman he’s hitting on makes the fatal flaw of saying “I wish there was something I could to,” to which Barney smarmily replies “Oh, Tanya, I’m so glad you said that.”

In another, it is revealed that Barney, before becoming the womanizer he is at the time of the show, was once a romantic hippie, who planned on joining the Peace Corps and going to Nicaragua (which he pronounced Neecaragooa, attempting to be as culturally correct as possible before even entering the country—see the Stuff Expat Aid Workers Like blog for more on this phenomenon). When the girl leaves him for a suit, Barney turns himself into just that sort of man, the Barney we the viewers know and love (and love to hate).

Finally, in a little throwaway line, Marshall (played by Jason Segel), on how he and his fiancĂ© manage to book their dream wedding location, says “It’s on like the former Soviet Republic of Azerbaijan.” Not sure what’s so on about Azerbaijan (or what was on at the time the episode aired—2005), but I appreciated the reference.

So that was my March 1. To whoever on the HIMYM writing staff who either did Peace Corps, or is drawn to it in someway, thank you, you certainly added a nice touch to my day.

Novruz is Coming

Novruz is coming. The goose is getting fat. Well, no, it’s not, but every few nights, my host brother goes out into the yard with the family rifle to see if there are any geese flying migrating overhead. Besides, who has geese? Turkeys, chicken, ducks, that’s normal, but geese? Crazy talk.

Novruz is the biggest holiday in Azerbaijan, a celebration of the end of winter and the coming spring. Novruz is a secular holiday, though it has roots in the Zoroastrian tradition, and variations on Novruz are also celebrated in a number of coutnries in the region, including Afghanistan, Iran, Iraq, Georgia, Bulgaria, and Albania.

The four Tuesdays leading up to Novruz, which will be March 20-22, are called Chershemba, and each symbolizes one of the four elements (water, fire, wind, and earth) awakening from winter. It is common to light candles during dinner and build a fire outside. The last two Tuesdays my host brother has lit two torches and stuck them in the ground. We stand outside and watch them burn. The first Tuesday, there was still some snow on the ground, so we had a snowball fight and made a snowman. For dinner both nights, my host mother made plov. Plov is generally reserved for special occasions such as visiting relatives and holidays.

Novruz itself is a large, multi-day holiday, and schools will get about 10 days off. One of the staples of Novruz is the building of a large bonfire, and people jump over the fire while making wishes. Children carry their hats around to their neighbors and leave them inside the door. They return later to find their hat filled with treats and candies, a practice that reminds me of a sort of mash up of Santa Claus and Halloween. They also ask questions and then eavesdrop on the adults and it is believed that the first thing they hear will answer their question.

Novruz is also a time for family. My other host brother will be coming in from Baku, as well as the previous volunteer who lived with this family. Many families also take time to remember those who have passed away. Last Tuesday, our neighbors honored their father who died a year ago. My host parents spent a large part of the day at their house, as he was a friend of theirs.

Valentine's Day Package (This Post is a bit Delayed)

I was surprised to find a package for me at the post office the other day, when I went to mail a letter. It turned out to be a largely Valentine’s Day package from my grandparents, which included some amazing homemade cookies but also Valentine’s Day hearts. I have spent the last two days trying to explain Valentine’s Day to my students, so this could not have come at a better time. It was difficult to explain that Valentine’s Day is no longer a Christian holiday, but anyone can celebrate it. Then getting into love and hearts is something that they really need something tangible to understand.

I shared some of the hearts with my host family the night they came. At first my family just ate the hearts, until I explained that part of the point of them was reading the messages on them. And so they set about trying to interpret the messages on the hearts, while I provided explanations when necessary. My host mother poured some into the sugar bowl. After awhile, we began paying attention to other things, and my host mother stood up to reach into the sugar bowl and popped something into her mouth. She noticed that I had looked up, and smiling, quickly reassured me that it was a piece of sugar she had taken, not a candy she had neglected to read.

Those candy hearts are kind of hard to explain sometimes. It’s difficult to know what translates and what doesn’t, metaphorically. “Be my world.” The use of “2” for “to” and “4” for “for.” To understand the latter, the person has to know some English. Understanding the former requires the same metaphors to exist in both cultures, and that’s harder to know. When I gave hearts to my conversation club kids, they of course wanted to know what the hearts meant. They giggled for the one’s about kissing, and probably wondered why someone would want another to “jump 4” them. Frankly, I wonder about that and I speak English.